Precious one

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hai my blog, wanna share something with u,

Lately I always reflect on my life, many stories have been written into my life scrapbook. In the past I always wonder if there is anyone who will love me for who I truly am, but believe me, I end up hurting myself. It hurt me badly. I bleed inside, only God knows.

I’m sure every girl dream of a fairytale like love story. I’m sorry if I’m wrong but I once dream of “And they live happily ever after” love story, like the one in fairytale. Déjà vu much right! I already said about this in my last post but as I said it’ll never came true.

Okay let me make this straight. I end up hurting myself and I nearly gave up but God give me hope. Till then, I never stop praying for the one who is meant for me to arrive. The one who took my hand and said I’m the one, who cares and love me for who I am. Finally, he came humble and kind. He is the one, for me he is the GREATEST GIFT from God. Love Him so much.. But remember all the GREATEST love of all, We only get from our mighty God. ^_^

Something to share..

Reality is not the same with fantasy.. You can fantasized but it'll never become reality..

Thanks to Google for this pic..


only me daCHENDA



hai my blog,

just wanna tell you something.. ^__^

I've watched fairytale like Cinderella , Snow White etc.. and it's always a Happy Ending .." And they lived happily ever after".. but fairytale, [ It's too good to be true] ... and this is only Fantasy..

When I was little , I wish my life could be perfect. Always happy all the time.. o.O
but it didn't came true.. why?? Because this is reality we're dealing with!! Many obstacles we need to face.. If we are easily defeated by our REALITY.. we will never survived in this WORLD!! Our World is a CRUEL place.. We must be strong in order to live.. Always rely on God.. He is our source of strength and happiness.. I know He's always there for us.. Although I'm not that perfect, I always neglected God, I only turn to Him when I'm in difficult situation..


I'm bad aren't I. I'm ashamed of myself.. I supposed to always be thankful to Him.. Because of Him , I still survived till this day.. He always give me chance to correct the things I've done WRONG.and I never use that opportunity He gave me. but what if He suddenly take my life away and I didn't have the chance to correct it.. Will I be in heaven??? My point is , God is everything, put Him first, I'll correct myself, I'll learn to be more thankful to Him.. He's Good all the time..

Let's think about it. Our life thought us many things, When we successfully overcome our obstacle we'll be strong in order to live in this world . cont to do this, until the day come and we shall live in peace with our MIGHTY GOD...never deliberately take Your own life.. God didn't like it..

A little bit..

credit to : QUE yarn.. for the beautiful PIX.. ^__^
only me daCHENDA

hai Blog.. I can't sleep yet.. huhu
whenever I hear yiruma's piece.. The idea to write just popped out.. !!
so it's time to write..

When You are born, you cry and everybody around you smile, live your life the fullest ... so when you die, you are the one who smile and everybody around you cry..
wonder why am i saying things like this...

Life is unpredictable, it is meaningless if you didn't appreciate it.
I feel alone right now, it seems like I'm the only one who still alive in this world, wonder what's it like if it's really happened.....

wow that complete loneliness...
I can't bare it all..
Imagine yourself as a baby right now.. You only know how to cry, what does it feel like if a little baby were neglected?? HOPELESS isn't it?? They are supposed to have somebody to take care of them.... but still there are somebody out there who don't have a heart, they threw their baby away, didn't they felt the bonding when they carried the baby for 9 months??

Live your DAY like it was your LAST...
So you will die peacefully when the TIME come...
But still there are somebody out there deliberately taking their own life.. GOD love us so much that He CREATED us.. but why do people hate themselves do much they're willing to harm themselves??

THIS IS JUST MY OWN THOUGHT..
BUT LET'S THINK ABOUT IT...
WHY?? DON'T YOU WANNA KNOW WHY??

Maybe

only me daCHENDA

Maybe i'm not the kind of girl that could attract many people.. but it's just me.. i am who i am.. I Know i'm special in God's eyes

Maybe i'm too sensitive that i cried whenever something bothering my mind and i cry along with others when they are in pain.

Maybe i'm too young to loved someone deeply, but yeah I truly love him.

Just maybe, I'm not a Good writer , but my mind told me to express my own thoughts through writing.. although i made grammatical mistakes .. please do forgive me.. I JUST LOVE TO WRITE, writing is everything to me, it's kinda fun.. yeah.. the ideas just popped out like.. bOOM!! then there i am, writing like a professional writer..

I think my mind is full of fantasy and curiosity.. I just want to share with You all.. okay see You all in my next post.. God bless

Our life

only me daCHENDA

hai my blog..
i want to share something with u.

There are things in life that could not be explain,
You might be thinking what is it?

In the past i wonder... what is the purpose of living??

but now I see things differently.. I start to appreciate life. People come and go. you don't know when your turn come..

Our life is precious, we met many people throughout our life and each one of them taught us something..

I've seen many grieve and sadness of people.. I shared their joy at first but at last their laughter fade.. Their mourn conquer the space. My heart could not bare all their pain, it also bleed to see others suffer. Yeah, loosing someone special is hurtful, tears will be your best friend and laughter will be your enemy. Seeing the photo of your lost loved one will refresh all the memories. Once, they are with you then they're gone forever. You can't see their smile anymore, You can't feel their love anymore.

Tomorrow seems no more and future seems forever.. Life could be empty.. world become black and white.. but we must be strong. Things happened for a reason my friend once said, She's a very brave and strong young girl. I know that because she can still smile although she's in pain. I know it's hard for her. it's so hard to explain the feelings, we could say be strong . but we don't actually feel the same pain.. I respect her so much that i want to dedicate this for her. I hope she'll be success. May God bless. her.. ^__^

a moment to remember

only me daCHENDA

Your smile, your warm hand that holds mine, make me miss you so much..
distance seems so jealous with us, time always passed quickly..


this moment should be appreciated, we live only once, when you love someone, appreciate him, care for him, enjoy the time that both of you share together now, live your day like this was the last.. make everything memorable when you are with him, who knows when the day come...


so, enjoy your time while you still can, what we can do now is pray.. God knows the best... God bless..

happy new year and happy belated birthday my blog

only me daCHENDA

happy New year my blog..
mmuah.. it's been a year since we first have each other isn't it??

so happy to be with you..

at TAMBUNAN day 2

only me daCHENDA..

hai my blog...
miss You so much..
wow. I'm at Tambunan now.. and I'm sooooo happy to be here.. with all my cousins, aunty and uncle.. but unfortunately my parents, bro and sis are not here yet.. T__T
but they'll be here tomorrow.. weee~~~
We played Badminton yesterday and i had a sprain angkle, backache, and bump on my wrist.. ehhehe barely walk on my very own foot today.. heheh

umm what else.. yeah today we had a GREAT time together... NO 1 is our GROUP title for today as we got all NO 1 in the GAMES ..weee~~~

that's all for today.. till then..

What??

OMG.. OMG... I can't believe it!!

Hi Blog..

woooohoo.. yey me!!
Yey I've managed my blog for nearly 1 years now.. wee~~
hehehe soooo happy

Guys.. Christmas is next week.. wow... can't believe it.. ~_~ wee~~
but my holidays are only for a short while.. huhuh
so many things to do in so little time...

So I want to take this chance to wish MERRY CHRISTMAS to you all.. I LOVE you all.. ^___^.... okay blog.. mmuah love You..

hey!! Wake Up!!

hehehe in my weird mood.. heheheh

hai blog, hehe

hai wanna know something, >>>>>> Exam is just around the corner <<<<<

so, reality check2 for me.. sadly, I still live in my fantasy.. hahha

I can't concentrate.. huhu looking at my other friends at different university who are now in a Holidays.. arghh make me so jealous.. heheh T_T.. huhuh

but never mind, hehe.. later my exam will over..
JUST WANNA remind myself to STUDY.. This post is dedicated for myself.. so that I WAKE UP from my LONG NEVER ENDING DREAM.. hahah.

WAKE UP FI !!!!!!!!!!! STUDY !!! STUDY!! btw all the best my friends... you can do it. God bless

LOVE is in the AIR.. hehe ^_^v

Hai my blog, missed ya a lots.. huhu

Hey, I've something to tell ya.. haha It's been a while isn't it..
many things have gone through me this past few months. sorry i didn't visit you.. huh
>>>> REGRET <<<<<< hehhee

so where was I.. yeah right..
okay wanna tell You my story.. ^_^v I'm in LOVE now.. heh so happy to be with him.. never experienced this before.. ^_^v this is LOVE for sure..
huhuh.. but will continue to pray for this.. may God bless our relationship.
BEST OF LUCK FOR ALL OF YOU WHO ARE IN LOVE NOW.. hehe

2 Heart becOme 1..

2 heart become 1?? how come??
heart surgery??? hehehhe

WhaT is IT?????

>>>> LOVE <<<<<<

this words (2 heart become 1) kinda make me sad ...

Why someone would make fun of LOVE???
how could they??? cruel beyond no reason??

Gentle reminder for those out there, either boys or girls.. if You are in LOVE right now, please don't make fun of others feeling.. they have feelings too you know..

I experienced many types of relationship..

1. SMS LOVE.
2. Somewhat true Love ( because i still have feelings toward my ex)
3. Fake and full of secrets and lie.
4. NO feeling LOVE.

sometimes people think that i'm like changing clothes(changing Bf).. but they didn't know what my real situation is. (sad)

what i truly want is someone who can understand me and care for me.. LOVE me for who i am and guide me through the way of GOD.. .. huhuh

when i see rings, inside i really hope for a better relationship next time..



because rings is round, symbolized endless relationship to me.. sometimes i feel like living in my own world, fantasized all the beauty of LOVE.. but I forgot i'm in reality right now.. so reality check for me.. Nothing is the same like fantasy in real world..

True Love are Worth to wait.. ^_^

In De silence..Midnight Story.

hai my Blog,
missed my Blog very much.. ^_^
i didn't write my blog for a long time hehehe..
now it's time to write..

Whenever i sleep late ,
so many things come across my mind..
the fan sound.. the complete silence always creep me out..
this kind of feeling keep remind me of DEATH!!..
In the dark place, in the complete silence and sorrow.
Your body and soul separated..
would it be the same silence and loneliness that we felt right now??



the creep, the empty and sorrow road ahead.. the indescribable loneliness..
what does that feel like??
sometimes, people didn't appreciate life, suicide!!!
what are they thinking??

so appreciate your life. live your life the fullest..

p/s i don't like midnight feeling huhuh.. ~_~.. advice me to sleep early heheheh..

Hello 2010

happy New year !!!

Hai my blog, huhuhu i missed a chance to wrote something in my page in the 1st January of 2010.. huhuhu but never mind..so , i wanna take this opportunity to wish YOU happy new year. May you guys , go through 2010 with lots of joy and happiness.

May Jesus love guide us through 2010.. huhuhu=)

So guys, how was your new year???

here I wanna share something with you guys.
on new year's eve, my dad bought chicken wings.. so we bake the chicken wings using the oven.. it was fun though, but it's not the same as when Your using the grill to roast it.. huhuuhu

To my cousin arae, i was touched to read her blog for some reason.. huhuhu

deep down in my heart i wanna shout , Arae i wanna be with You guys.. but what can i do right.. I'm hoping that i could celebrate my new year with them this year.. huhuhu like last year. hehe=) anything is possible in Jesus love right.. amen

New semester will start this Monday.. wish me luck k Guys.

831

831

yesterday my Friend said 831 fi... before we end our chat.. i asked her the meaning of 831.. and then she told me to find it for myself..

i think of it for the whole day but i still couldn't find the answer.. hahahah just now my friend ask me about 831 again .. and i confess that i didn't know the answer.. hahha..=) she told me to search it on GOOGLE.. so i did .. here are the meaning of 831 :

I LOVE YOU

got it???

8 letters , 3 words , 1 meaning = I LOVE YOU..

IF your lazy to type I LOVE YOU .. just type in 831.. simple right.. but it's meaningful

The link is www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=831
thanks to URBANDICTIONARY..

i found something interesting to share with you guys..
please log on to this website if you're interested:www.831ministries.org/


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2 days b4 new year..

hye blog..

i am sooooo sad..

to know that i'll leave 2009.... there's soooo many memories here in 2009... good memories, bad memories.. it all remind me of 2009... huhuhuhuhu

argggggggg, i will be missing u 2009..
2010 here i come.. i hope that 2010 will be just as great as 2009.. huhuhuhu

always or forever???

my friend asked ,how long will you be with me??
>> then im thinking... which one to answer?? always or forever?? because i dont know either one which is the longer??

in Bahasa always means selalu and Forever ,means selamanya...

so what do you think about it?

if i answer i'll always be with you.. is that means that i'll be with my friend 24/7???

if i answer i'll be with you forever.. that means i'll be with my friend till the end of my life...

then come to think of it again.. both words got the same meaning..

so , my answer is i'll always be with you forever..
in bahasa saya akan sentiasa besama kamu selamanya..

a bit weird but i think that's the best answer.. dont you think so??

if you have any other suggestion.. please comment me ok..

which one should i choose???

Life isn't easy to go through.. sometimes you need to choose your own path..
the narrow n the broad path.. but.. if you chose the wrong path your life will turn upside down.. =( and if you ask me about it, i surely say i dont like to choose.. hate to choose.. it sometimes make me feel guilty, uneasy.. and such thing i hate that kind of feeling...

when i come into this kind of situation, the only solution i think of is GOD .. i know He is the only one who can help me to go through all my obstacles.. sometimes i feel like i was neglected and abandoned but that doesn't matter, all the matter is i have faith in Him .. i believe that if i still have faith in Him anything can happen and my prayer would be answered... =)

lastly, dear friend.. thank you for all your support to me all through this year.. i wish you all a Happy New Year .. may this coming 2010 bring You all Joy and Happiness.. Praise the lord for His kindness... amen

Our life can change in a sec…

when we are happy we wish that the moment could last forever.. but that moment cant last forever because our life can change in a second..i was so happy because i can visit my cousin back at Tambunan.. But my happiness doesn't last long.. Yesterday, I feel so sad to say goodbye to my cousin .. but what can i do right?? Now i feel like going back to Tambunan but my holidays are going to over soon..So, i need to pack my things for the new semester.. All i can say for this moment is .. i'm going to miss all the time that we spend together..

My happiness start when I 1st set my foot on Tontolob. Along the way there , I was amazed by the breath taking view, inside i am so thankful to God because of his beautiful creation.. I spent most of my time with my cousin arae..and we had a great time together . This year was the 1st time ever that me and arae have to work till we drop for 6 days 6 nights. hahahahha there's nothing actually but i have to say we've done a lots of typing and printing.. but that was the best part of it because our family day come into a huge success.. i was so happy..

Although there's chaos on 22nd Dec ( my little sister ivy fainted) , but that doesn't matter.. all the matter is her spirits.. umm I think this year family day was the best family day ever.. i enjoyed myself a lot .. it's like a fairytale , a dream that never came true..But it is real though. Last words from me, Love your family as You love yourself.. Thanks to God because of His kindness.. amen=)

Tambunan here I come

hehhehe,

2 days ago, i finally back at tambunan..
wow.. the breath taking scenery.... sure amazed me a whole lots... i love it here
the air is fresh...
SOOOOOOOOOOO COLD
hehhehehhe

I'll stay at tambunan till 27th Dec.. then i'll be back at my home once again.. huhuhuhu =)